I'm sick.
I'm tired.
I'm tired of you.
I'm tired of everything.
I hate you.
I hate all of you.
I hate being with you.
Everything sucks.
My life sucks.
Don't have anything that can cheer me up.
It's empty.
My life empty.
Where did the fun and the careness and the kindness and the love go?
Where did the rainbow, the colorful of life go?
Do I have somebody beside me? To tell me that everything okay? That It's just my feeling. That life is just great?
I'm sorry this post has to be such a junk. I'm sorry I think It's just my feeling. I often feeling like this, although everything is fine. Well, let's hope everything is fine and life is so much better than I think.
and for you, please understand me better than anyone else. because you're not in number one who knows me well. sorry to say this.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Guess Who!
Dear blog,
I want to tell you about someone. Let say he/she is my role model. Let's just call it "X".
X. You are the most greatest person I have ever met. You are my guidance. X is a very wise person. You know what's right and what's wrong.You can divide it and then you make your own decision, a very right decision. You can solve problem one by one. From the easiest until the hardest. X is a very hard worker. X never stop before X solve what is wrong. X didn't sleep, just to know what's wrong. X is a really good listener. X listen well to everything I said and understand it. X is a very good adviser. X always gave me a good advice. X always help me solve my problem. X gave me a very good advice with his/her own words and his/her sweet words really encouraging me. X can gave me something that I looking for. X is very grateful person. X always say "thankyou" to God. And X always remind me that we are nothing without God. X is a very positive person. X always say the positive first and never see the negative. X always judge people from the positive first. X is smart. Very smart. X can teach me everything that I flunk. If I failed on a test, X never mad at me. In fact, X always encouraging me, told me every time that I can do better. X never underestimate people. X always respect people. From the bottom until the top people. X does not see people from it's wealth. X is a sensitive person. X love to help the poor. Make their life better. X is not a extravagant. X always said that spending money for something that not to important is not good. There's much better way to spend money. X always said that I have to be grateful because there are more people that doesn't have a house, school, etc. X is very great with kids. X love to laugh. X love to make jokes. Sometimes it's not funny at all. X is a very loveble person. For X, family is his/her number one. X would do anything for his/her family. I love the way X hug me. It makes me feel warm. For me, X is my everything. I don't know what to do without X.
X, you are the greatest person I have ever met. Be grateful, and keep trying until you reach your goal. We love you X. Everyone love you. I love you :)
So, who's X? X is............................................................my dad :')
I want to tell you about someone. Let say he/she is my role model. Let's just call it "X".
X. You are the most greatest person I have ever met. You are my guidance. X is a very wise person. You know what's right and what's wrong.You can divide it and then you make your own decision, a very right decision. You can solve problem one by one. From the easiest until the hardest. X is a very hard worker. X never stop before X solve what is wrong. X didn't sleep, just to know what's wrong. X is a really good listener. X listen well to everything I said and understand it. X is a very good adviser. X always gave me a good advice. X always help me solve my problem. X gave me a very good advice with his/her own words and his/her sweet words really encouraging me. X can gave me something that I looking for. X is very grateful person. X always say "thankyou" to God. And X always remind me that we are nothing without God. X is a very positive person. X always say the positive first and never see the negative. X always judge people from the positive first. X is smart. Very smart. X can teach me everything that I flunk. If I failed on a test, X never mad at me. In fact, X always encouraging me, told me every time that I can do better. X never underestimate people. X always respect people. From the bottom until the top people. X does not see people from it's wealth. X is a sensitive person. X love to help the poor. Make their life better. X is not a extravagant. X always said that spending money for something that not to important is not good. There's much better way to spend money. X always said that I have to be grateful because there are more people that doesn't have a house, school, etc. X is very great with kids. X love to laugh. X love to make jokes. Sometimes it's not funny at all. X is a very loveble person. For X, family is his/her number one. X would do anything for his/her family. I love the way X hug me. It makes me feel warm. For me, X is my everything. I don't know what to do without X.
X, you are the greatest person I have ever met. Be grateful, and keep trying until you reach your goal. We love you X. Everyone love you. I love you :)
So, who's X? X is............................................................my dad :')
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Suck.
Dear blog,
Hell yeah I need to buy some journal. A place where I could say anything. A place that just listen, not complain. A place where I could use my own free words to share my stories. A place that can make me calm. A place that can safe with secrets.
Sometimes, I feel really suck. I feel empty. Didn't have somebody beside me, even thought I know my friends are there. But I still couldn't share my true feelings. Angry, mad is all in me. I don't want to be a bad person. Really. But sometimes I couldn't stand something that can make me very angry. And yes, I kept that in my heart. I want to scream it to the world! But I can't.
School sometimes make me sick. I scheduled myself to study every day, but it's not compete. How can I get 39,00 in national examination if I'm so damn lazy? I hate my lazy-nezz. After school, I felt so sleepy so I often get to sleep. And not study-ing. God, help me againts my lazyness!
Well, what else? Family? I've got a huge fight with mom few weeks ago. But now, we're very happy :) My sister often get back to Jakarta. But some sad news my daddy have to work every weekend and stays for like 4 days. I miss him!!! Otherwise, It's all good.
Well, sorry for the bad post. But I'm in really need of Journal!
Hell yeah I need to buy some journal. A place where I could say anything. A place that just listen, not complain. A place where I could use my own free words to share my stories. A place that can make me calm. A place that can safe with secrets.
Sometimes, I feel really suck. I feel empty. Didn't have somebody beside me, even thought I know my friends are there. But I still couldn't share my true feelings. Angry, mad is all in me. I don't want to be a bad person. Really. But sometimes I couldn't stand something that can make me very angry. And yes, I kept that in my heart. I want to scream it to the world! But I can't.
School sometimes make me sick. I scheduled myself to study every day, but it's not compete. How can I get 39,00 in national examination if I'm so damn lazy? I hate my lazy-nezz. After school, I felt so sleepy so I often get to sleep. And not study-ing. God, help me againts my lazyness!
Well, what else? Family? I've got a huge fight with mom few weeks ago. But now, we're very happy :) My sister often get back to Jakarta. But some sad news my daddy have to work every weekend and stays for like 4 days. I miss him!!! Otherwise, It's all good.
Well, sorry for the bad post. But I'm in really need of Journal!
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